6/30/10

As of late I cant seem to take photos of myself that I like. I go threw them all and its like.

"Fat"
"Fat"
"Weird crouch thing going on."
"FAT"
"Stupid Face"
"Fat. "

In this photo I'm smiling but inside I'm really crying. Thats not true but I think it would be funny if you imagined me crying right after the photo was taken. Like, smile click waaaaaaaaaaahh!!!! Maybe this sense of humor is lost on anyone who isn't my best friend Thomas. Earlier this week I was explaining to my cousins the best joke Thomas and I ever thought of. (side note. most of our jokes are usually elaborate performance art with reaction being the main goal.)

1) Buy one large watermelon.
2) Go to the local outdoor mall.
3) Climb to the top of the escalators.
4) Scream as loud as you can in a distraught maniacal voice. Also it helps if you twist your face, vaudeville style. "MY BAAAAAAAAAABYYYYYYYYY!"
5) Drop watermelon down escalators.
6) Take photos.

I know this is actually really sort of sick and you probably hate me now. BUT if it was a hostile audience based art installation it really is thought provoking.


Oh and here is a dress I am working on for a friend. I showed you parts of it before. Thought?

Shirt - American Apparel
Shorts - Zara ( from recent trip to LA)
Shoes - Topshop

M.E.T

6/24/10

My computer is still having problems. Im not sure what to do about it, bleh. I guess Greg will have to take a break from computering on his computer and fix mine. He recently decided that getting a new iphone was kind of more important then celebrating our anniversary. Im really glad that I have Thomas around to say things like.

" You are allowed to be mad about this, but not THAT mad."

Thomas knows I can get alittle bit carried away. I like when he validates my anger but also curbs it.

Greg did get me flower and chocolate, but most importantly he gave a statement about how sometimes he is an idiot but that doesn't change the way he feels about me. After that I really couldn't be mad because he said everything that needed to be said.

I bought Gatorade powder in hopes that it was a more cost effective way of getting my morning drink on. SO much powder is needed that Im thinking its not worth it. Im currently drinking yellow water that tastes sort of alittle like the Gatorade I love and need.

Oh hey, Im working on that dress up there for a friend. What do you think?

M.E.T

6/22/10

Hi, Im back from LA. Im sorry but I didn't take any pictures of my trip. I don't usually like to take pictures during trips I just like to go and enjoy. But I did bring you back this skirt, to look at that is.

Isn't this skirt amazing! It is made of really good fabric, has a light pink linear AND THE BOW! I mean is it fantastic. It was a bit pricey but I think its was worth it and I like supporting smaller names. My sister Mari's boyfriend was taken aback by the price but like the good boy Greg is he didn't heckle me at all. Instead he bought a suit jacket, I think he caught the shopping fever.



I think I got alittle tan.

Knottsberry Farm was fun but, well Greg go sick and we had to wait in the car.

M.E.T

6/16/10

I got my computer and camera to work!

Photosphotosphotos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Blue Short Sleeve Sweater - Thirfted
Belt - Gomattagirls
Dress - Rodarte for Target
Socks - Hue
Shoes - OLD!

Hey Im going out of town tomorrow to visit my sister in LA. My family is going to meet her boyfriends family and go to Knottsberry Farm together!!!!!!!!!!! No, Im not excited. OK actually I am, Knottsberry Farm has a special place in my heart. Im not sure why, because I usually hate all theme parks but I LOVE it.

"TWO loud crazy brown family's talking and meeting at Knottsberry Farm. Sweating and hugging, together"

Greg added " and me."

"Oh yea, and you little white Greg."

FUN! Let the sitcom heists and Latin stereotypes begin!

M.E.T.

6/15/10

Something is wrong with my computer. Out of the photo set I took this morning this is the only one it let me upload. Luckily it was one of the better ones.

During the week I dress different depending on what I'm doing. Monday and Friday I usually dress down. These are bike riding days. Today is Tuesday which is calling for a mild bike ride day. SO Im wearing this dress with matching shorts under. I will probably wear some variation of this outfit all sumer long.

M.E.T.

6.11.10

These photos were sent to me by a friend awhile back. She noted that it was interesting to look at the photo below. They are basically the same outfits but with different details. Sort of Destiny's Child like.

A while ago I realized the recession was real but didn't effect me. In the last few months its become evident that no one is "safe". I do know that Im the type of person that will do anything to stay afloat. There is no position below me, but luckily for now I'm alright. Im trying to save as much money as I can because I have found that saving is fun and easyish. Isn't it weird to be a young person and see other young people parade in new expensive clothes like its the norm to spend $1000 on a pair of shoes. Then watch the news and see other in your same country struggling and becoming homeless. My feelings are a yo-yo of emotion. Its odd, I feel like I need more clothes, or more expensive clothes like the other women I see. Then I will feel guilt for being so wrapped up clothes, which is potentially shallow.

When I go running I see these amazing houses and wonder how they afford them and am stung by the realization that there is a good chance that I wont ever obtain that let alone dream houses in other cities. Its hard to balance realization as well as pride for real and current accomplishments.


Well with that said, one of the programs I worked for was completely cut by the mayor and has now been put into effect. I am trying to replace this job, not so much out of need but I realize that if anything did happen to any of the other jobs. I need to work as much as I can while I still can. A couple years ago while applying for an internship the women interviewing me ask what my age was. When stated she replied.

"Perfect age for working hard."


M.E.T

6.8.10

Oh, Hi there! I guess I've sort of been neglecting you. Again, life got busy. Last weekend was both Pride Festival and the Art Centers Yearly Fund-raising Gala. I think we had fun,ish. Also Greg (boyfriend) started is week long tour across Utah, read about sad events here.


Lately I've been ponder "Marriage". To me its still really strange concept. Its like when you were a small child and people say things like someday you will like boys and be married and have kids, and you squeal at the impossible thought. I still feel like that, yes it is more plausible now but I steal think its sort of a joke. Greg and I have been dating for just a few weeks short of 3 years. I dont know that we really want to be married but we do want to live together. With our families those two thought must come with one another, and honestly I don't feel the brash risktaker in me to go through with it and receive the consequence. People are sort of surprised at our lack of interest in marriage. Within my planning mind I convinced myself that I could infact do this marriage thing maybe even soonish out of convienance. My mind was set, but now my mind has began to wander.

My initial reasons for not wanting to be married right now is the inability to share my dreams with someone else. Thats what I've decided my resistance is. Its not necessarily that I think being married will cause me not to reach my goals. Its more that I want to experience the ups and downs on my own. I'm not sure why but its sort of the way I always imagined it. Also in a relationship you are always trying to be good and fair. I want to be able to do things without the constant reminder to being good and fair, maybe I just want to be naive and take risks? I also didn't plan to meet the guy for me at age 20. How do other people do it? How do there dreams, goals and wishes translate from mine = ours? Or mine with you around.

Also how do you beat longing to be single when he's around and missing him immensely and glaring at other happy couples when he isn't around? Constant RollerCoaster.

T-shirt - Macha Machete (Made by my sister)
Shorts - Heirloom
Sandals - Industry
Necklace - Idaho!

M.E.T

Denim

x Graduation Dress

Alright now that that is done with I just have to create my outfit for the Gala, and to start working on my clients orders. Not bad. Also my clothing from Fashion Stroll that didn't sell will be at Frosty Darling. Woo! Also I have a interview next Friday, what to wear? hmm...

Last night after I had finished the dress and it had been picked up I decided to go out. Usually I don't ever go anywhere alone other than work. I like to be with other people, but i realized that waiting around for other people in order to do what you want is stupid. I walked around, read the rest of my graphic novel, ate dinner at Eva's, and then walked back up the hill and went to bed. Sweet independence.

During the campout I wore my pajamas with my outfit and created a crazy outfit. I like how at this point no on says anything anymore.




Tshirt - Mommy vs Daddy
Dress - Nordstrom Rack
Leggings- Hellz Bellz
Socks - Gap
Shoes - Keds
Pony necklace - Lava Hotsprings

M.E.T.

6.1.10 WARNING POST ABOUT POKEMON AND THINGS THAT DONT MATTER TO YOU

This weekend I took a step away from Salt Lake City and landed in Downata Idaho. It was that time of year were I spend 3 straight days with my fathers side of the family. I am closest to these particular cousins, we've spent a large portion of our lives in each others basements playing video games.

Our pack of cousins consists of 10 male cousins from the ages 20 - 11 and me and my two sisters. We have alot more cousins but they were really never part of the core, either they were older and way too cool for us or their parents had issues that didn't allow us to bond. Once a year we go "camping" together. Our idea of camping is usually staying in a large cabin were our moms cook the whole time and we all play video games and get it to geek fights.



This particular campout also hosted the 2010 Primo Pokemon Battle. There were 6 people participating in teams of two. My brother and I were a team, and WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've supressing how excited I am about this. I feel like I cant show my cousins how into it I am because I need to keep atleast a little dignity. I cant tell my friends because they didn't get it in the first place. So Im telling you, we kicked some 11 year old ass. One team was a total let down and oddly they were seemingly closer to our age (18 &19). Then we battle the 11 & 15 yo for the title and WON.

I've confided in you how I am an extremely sensitive person. How I have so much emotion packed in here that it gets in the way of living. Well after the title battle my 11 yo cousin than stated that they only lost because of my brother. Wah! He basically said I was dead weight. Being the successful grown up I am, I almost cried . Then I set out to beat him. I trained ALOT more, had some help from my brother and only cheated alittle bit. When I do something I put alot of thought and effort into it. I have tactic and think it through. It was obvious that that was why me and my brother had such a good team. I had 4 level 65 Pokemon, and 2 level 82 Pokemon. My cousin had 3 level 75-80 Pokemon and like a level 39, and two 50. Unfortunately I cant swear in front of him but I was like

"What the Fuck?"

I trained so hard and thought about this way more than I should of and your dealing me with this bullshit? For these kids its just fun but for me its serious. In order for me to participate I had to play on the bus in between jobs. Play during walking to work. Play during a small break from sewing I put alot of effort into it. So basically I'm a total nerd, geek, dork, fool or as I would say a Nereek Do Fo. Well in the end I easily terminated his team. His retort in being beaten was,

"Well I only lost because you have differnt pokemon!"

Of course I wanted to yell at him like the crazy I am, but again Im an adult.

"NO! These are the same Pokemon as before! You always make excuses for why you lost but this time the true reason is become I'm better then you!"

Im a Nereek Do Fo.


Oh, here are photos from Minnetonka Cave.



Naturally I am unbelievable tired. My body and brain are like

" You had your fun, you made a clothing line, beat a bunch of school kids at their own game, spent the weekend with your family. All super tiring things, thats it we need 48 hours of sleeping."

Sorry brain and body! We've got a graduation dress to make! Oh and maybe a gala outfit for you by Friday.

M.E.T.