10.12.09

One of my special quality is being overly sensitive. This quality is much more of curse than a positive thing. This characteristic is manifested mostly in what movies I can watch. ALso it seems like a weekly thing that I will freak out at a family member or in front of my family. It seems that I am reverting instead of becoming more in control of my feelings. I have the terrible combination of being extremely sensitive and having a hot temper. SO when someone makes me upset they feel bad because I'm crying. I hate it that when I do something bad that other people feel guilty because I'm crying and they're not. Crying can be an annoying way of baiting people. I hate the way I make my family feel and that I'm such a lose cannon. They always have to tiptoe around me and I wish I could just control it better. Its really interesting, as well as sweet to see the way they try to help me. All my siblings even the ones 8 years my minor understand and watch out for me, when a movie is scary or a graphic part is about to appear they warn me, and I trust them. Its really embarrassing to be an adult but have childlike problems. This has been a problem all my life. As a young child I was always "scared" of EVERYTHING. My mom said that she thought it was just a phase and that I would grow out of it. Earlier this year I had and odd hormonal shift? This made me feel extremely sensitive, grouchy and depressed. I've gotten out of that funk but I realize that I'm never going to be like other people my age.

Like I said the biggest difference is I cant watch most movies. Here are the things that reallyreally get to me.

Animal Violence
Mass Chaos
War/ Large scale violence
Most Violence ( I can handle watching fair one on one fights, but if its unfair I don't like it)
Extreme yelling/crying (The WORST)
Children being abused
End of the World Plots

When I write that things "get to me" I don't mean Im uncomfortable in my seat. What happens is that I get really upset, my brain and emotions become confused with what I'm seeing. Then I begin covering my ears and then closing my eyes and curling in ball, because its too much. My brain begins to ring and I start crying uncontrollably. It takes awhile for me to be able to stop and catch my breath and slowdown my brain. This has happened on several occasions. Sometimes during kids movies like HOLES, when MaryLou the mule gets killed. I've seen that movie a million times. Last time I watched it I cried for 10m and it freaked out my whole family. My parents thought someone had done something to me, or that we were at least watching something mildly scary, nope just HOLES. It was one of the first times as an adult that they saw me get that upset at a movie. Then I also lost it during UP when Dug the dog gets thrown by the other dogs, yea... I only got threw the first 10m of the movie, THE HOST. I really wanted and still want to see that movie. It was really terrifying to me and we had to turn it off. I just cant help it, and I never know when I will get upset. I can watch something scary and be fine but sometimes my brain switch flips and 10m later I'm still trying to get control of myself.

I'm writing this as an attempt to try to understand myself better. Im trying to deal with myself and let my family know its not their fault and that they don't have to be sorry. I want them to have fun without worrying about me. I'm trying to make the right steps towards controlling my emotions.

Is that even possible?

M.E.T.

10.9.10

OHOHOHHH!!!! My SKIRT ARRIVED! see previous post with the sailor anchor skirt. I'm not wearing it right now, because I want to style it just right.

Also after writing the last post and reading my gmail chat with my significant other. I realized Yes, I am sort of a brat.

Greg: did you get my text about tonight? How did you sleep?

me: no.

Sent at 9:34 AM on Friday

Greg: Oh. Well, basically Taylor has to fill in for someone at work tomorrow from 9-5 so we can't go shopping during the day and I don't want to go after Monique's thing so we may go tonight around 8:30 to do shopping. I can still hang out for a bit after work then go shopping then come back over so it's not a complete loss, but it is still annoying.

Sent at 9:38 AM on Friday

me: OK, I just wrote a blog post about how I hate it when plans get ruined. Although you never know how to prevent things getting ruined.

Sent at 9:41 AM on Friday

Greg: Yeah. I feel really sad about this actually. I really like Friday Movie nights. But I can at least go to dinner I think.

Sent at 9:45 AM on Friday

me: YEA! WHATEVER!

Greg: Sorry.

I gave my mom my leftovers and she was REALLY excited. She said, "I love orange chicken. Ooh this looks good."

Sent at 9:48 AM on Friday

me: bleh!

Im not really mad, but I would like to continue pretending.

I guess your mom had sort of bad taste in food.

can I have a marie callenders pies?

Sent at 9:51 AM on Friday

Greg: Sure. Is it the pie sale month this month?

me: I think so I saw a sign

lameface.

Sent at 9:56 AM on Friday

Greg: I did too, but my mom thought it was last month. Standby for confirmation.

Sent at 9:58 AM on Friday

Greg: Looks like this month.

me: Well, your mom likes gross food!!!!!!!

I want key lime pie, Boston creme and a banana pie.

Sent at 10:01 AM on Friday

Greg: All 3? Well I want a chocolate cream pie. So there.

See, how good this guy is at ignoring the silliness and focusing on anything food related.

M.E.T.

10.9.10

If you looked at my room or inside my car you wouldn't get the sense that I was an organized person. You would probably categorize me as a slob. That's true, ish... I am messy about my living space. I hate washing dishes and cleaning up. Another unhelpful thing I do is, work on several projects at once. Which means scraps of fabric in my bed, paper on the coffee table, half finished hat on the dinning room table and velvet bits on ever floor space possible. While I am very messy, I am also a very organized person. I plan events and my daily life very carefully, and when things don't go as planned I get upset. I'm not upset because I cant fix it but because it didn't go as planned. A lot of things just cant be planned for and that actually annoys me aswell. Here are 3 recent examples.

On Wed, I went to REAL Salt Lake VS Guadalajara Chivas soccer game. I initally wanted to take my uncle to a soccer game, but WHEN I HEARD THE CHIVAS WERE COMING! I instantly got tickets and was excited. Im really not that into the team but I LOVE the city of Guadalajara. I like its big city but small town vibe and they have SO many cathedrals and beautiful architecture. In the first 10m of the game my group decided to root for REAL instead. The Chivas were so mean! and unsportsmanlike, and that's something I cant support. The game when fine though. Getting to the game was frustrating. It started at 7pm, I got out of work at 5:45. The plan was that everyone else meet at my parents house by 6:15 and we would be in our seats by 6:45. My mother... is just like me except she is missing the organized side of her brain. She is also the most giving person in the world. SO alot of time me and my siblings will have to walk home in bad weather, or wait for hours for her to pick us up while she is talking a complete stranger home, because she feels bad that they have to walk home in bad weather. Its all very backwards. On this particular day she dissapeared in the name of goodwill, and no one ended up in the right pick up place. Which drove me crazy. At sporting events parking is always crazy and with this hold up I knew we would be stuck in it. I got all flustered and frustrated by having to go to two completely different places. In the end we arrived there by 6:40 and it was fine. But I just don't like it when everyone isn't on the same page and ready to execute my plan. Maybe thats the problem Im just a control freak.

When I go grocery shopping I always think that I wont need a cart. So I always end up carrying everything and I usually drop something. Yes, I am a walking disaster. This day was no different I had everything and I was goinggoinggoing, in the bread section I caught a glimpse of the doughnut case. Before I could think this out I had a chocolate sprinkled doughnut in my very full hands. I soon realized that this was NOT going to work. I wandered around the store a bit more before I decided I had to eat the doughnut right then, or else it would get all smooshed. I told myself it was ok, I would just remember to pay for it on the way out. I didn't. I totally forgot, and then I felt guilty and mad that I proved all the people who saw me eat it and thought I was stealing right.

During the week I went to 60's Soul night at the W. I was wearing the outfit in the last post. I did the stupidstupid thing of sitting outside on their patio. In the morning my friend who had taken me home in is newish car, asked if last night I had sat in gum. That's right GUM. When I checked my skirt there was a big spearminty gob on my skirt. The exact gob that matched the one on the seat of his car. Oops. This was the one instant were it wasn't really my fault. As I was writing this I realized that I left the skirt in the hamper with the rest of my clothes. I am hoping that nothing else gets gobbed...

I guess this post was more about how I am stupid, and not actually about being organized.

M.E.T.

P.s. its OK my roommate paid for the doughnut while she did her groceries. STOP WORRYING!

10.6.09

Hello,

I got some new clothes yesterday so today I wore this new shirt and felt like I had to share. I bought this tank top at FICE, which is a locally owned store that carries a lot of street fashion brands and snow/skate brands like WESC, Insight, HellsBellz and Holden. The are having a sale RIGHT NOW! They have coats, swimsuits, dresses, shoes and basically everything else at drastically reduced prices. Yumm. Visit them online ficegallery.com or at their store on 200 South between State St and 200 East. This top is made by INSIGHT, and is a perfect example of what kind of clothing they produce. INSIGHT likes to dabble in crazy colorful print on stretchy material. I like this brand and using their clothing to make outfits pop. I don't think I could pull off wearing multiple INSIGHT items in one outfit, but with all black its perfect. Buying this top was a nobrainer, not just because it was on sale and cute but I LOVE this fabric. It feel almost swimsuit like in the way it wears and stretches.

I knew I wanted to wear this top today, so when I realized they perfectly matched my boots I was enthralled! They don't match color-wise but I think they are both sort of loud and out-there in aesthetics.

This button less cardigan has this fun stencil I added on the back. I was teaching a class about t-shirt modification and I had to make an example so I customized this cardigan.

Lastly, I wanted to make sure you guys got a pretty good look at the tank tops print. Here I am giving you a stink eye. Honestly I am terrible at having my photo taken so Im trying really hard to improve. My problem is I always think I look like a fattyboomboom, I realize I have to get over that and just be cool with myself. SO anyways LOOK AT THIS LESS THAN PERFECT PHOTO OF ME!

Cardigan - Steven & Barry's Closeout Sale

Tank Top - INSIGHT brand, bought at FICE

Skirt - Ross Dress For Less ( I bought this like a million years! I was in highschool, and this was the first time I wore it in years.)

Tights - We Love Color

Shoes - 80%20 brand

10.4.09

Ive mentioned a favorite pair of gray suede ankle boots a few times. I think it is time for you to meet them. These boots are from the brand Jump. Jump specializes in funky sneakers and putting a hip-hop edge on everyday types of shoes. I took these photos yesterday before all the rain. Im standing beside my car, Susan.

I like the fun patent cutouts. The added details of the cutouts and zipper in the front really makes these boots stand out. I love these shoes! I don't like to think of clothes as something we wear solely for utilitarian reasons. I believe that clothing should be revealing of ones personality. That doesn't mean each outfit has to be over the top, but it does mean that I put thought into each item of clothes I buy or put on my body.

On my drive from my parents home to my apartment it was raining pretty hard. I was worried about logistics like parking, and not being able to see in the rain. Another worry was getting these shoes home with out ruining them in the rain. I hadn't planned accordingly and I didn't bring a suitable pair of shoes to change into. Maybe this means Im a shoecrazy or my priorities are all wrong but I ran barefoot from where I parked to my apt. Cold! but the shoes are safe!

M.E.T.

10.1.09

Alright, well here is my first daily wear post. Eerrrr.

Yesterday it rained and snowed, and I think from now on its going to be cold.Today was chilly but still sunny, so I dressed warm but sunny.

There is even a cute pumpkin in the shot! It goes with the mustard tights and sweater. Im not a very good photographeor but Im going to try to get better everytime. Here is my Raspberry beret, I got this two years ago at a local thrift store, but I always forget I have it. This winter Im going to try to use it more often. Here I am staring up at an invisible bird made of chocolate.

Here I'm pretending your a bird made out of chocolate.

This outfit is a really good introduction to my daily wear. I really like patterns and strong color. I also like to think that Im interested in shoes with fun details. The things in my wardrobe are from a million different places. I personally think its wrong to wear clothes all from the same place, I also think you should mix up expensive with cheap. Since I have a little bit more to love, Im VERY careful about the way my clothes is cut, or how it hangs, or what material it made of or whether it makes me look like a fattyBoomBooom. I tie the coats belt around myself to highlight the smallest width in my waist. I think this worked ok, even if the photo isn't perfect.

Dress - Decades (The most fabulous vintage shop in Utah)

Jacket - Daily sale site

Sweater - LOB (mexican chain store)

Tights - Forever 21? I think?

Boots - Steve Maddens (I bought this at the warehouse that sells stuff that fall off trucks, NPS)

M.E.T.

10.1.09

Im always bragging that I never get sick. I tell all my friends, family and coworkers that they can count on me because Im not a weakling that "gets sick". Im really proud of my healthy status. But even us strong ones get sick from time to time. Currently I have a cold. The worst part is the headache that comes with it. I find it hard to standup or blow my nose. One thing that I didn't realize it would make difficult is going to the bathroom. Somehow the act of going to the bathroom makes my head cold unbearable, yea I don't get it either.

Last night I went to the fabled Pizzeria 712, in Orem Utah. Foodwise it was pretty good, but its hard to justify driving that far when Downtown SLC Settabello's maybe better. I wouldn't say the drive was in vain though. P712 is hidden in gaudy humungous condo complex, when we entered the complex, our thoughts were "OMG what are we in store for..." The interior of P712 is welcoming and instantly classy. The space is very intimate and warm. The lighting is a romantic dim and the tables and chairs are in dark wood. Maybe dark wood doesn't do anything for you, but for me its small details like dark wood that make a space reach its full potential. The service we received was impeccable and I had absolutely NO complaints about that. Our server wasn't too friendly or overbearing, she was just happy to get us what we needed. Perfect. The most delightful aspect to this pizzeria that made it know to me that we were in someone restaurant masterpiece, was their selection of artwork. They had 3 Brian Kershisnik paintings on their east facing wall. I happen to be a really big Kershisnik fan, I worked at the UMFA during his exhibit there. I love how simple but thought provoking his work is. The people he draws always look that exact same, which makes them more like symbols rather than individuals. I find his work really aesthetically pleasing. Also always check a restaurants bathroom, that will tell you how much a place values their customer. P712's is beautiful. I really respect this restaurant whether I will eat there frequently or not. This is definately a place worth trying. Everything about this restaurant was meticulously detail but felt simple and gracious. Its kind of like the concept that a girls makeup is so well placed you almost thought they were that naturally hot.

Check out their blog!

http://www.pizzeria712.blogspot.com/resturaunt

The same owners of P712 have a new restaurant that looks so immaculate I almost couldn't believe it existed in UTAH! I will try it and let you know, how fabulous this one is.

Communal Restaurant

100 North University Avenue

Provo, Utah 84601

M.E.T.

9.29.09

Ive been writing these blog posts as if you already sort of know me. I realize you probably dont. Let me get a couple things cleared up.

Facts about Marcelita (from now on I will just assume you know stuff)

1. I am 23 years old, female over here!
2. I am the second of six kids. My best friend and my special someone come from a families of six aswell!
3. Im a crafty arty person. I work in the arts teaching, and coordinating stuff...
4. Im super indulgent. I LOVE candy, chocolate, cheese, overly cute clothes, and all that good stuff.
5. I can be super judgmental and Im trying to be better at that.
6. Im not married, I do have a someone but thats as far as it goes. No kids, just 2 birds and a hedgehog and a bed full of stuffed animals.

I think that covers the most basic,basics. I just hate it when other bloggers or movies leave you in the cold about things like that. Or maybe its just that I get really into others lives and I want to know EVERYTHING. Yes, Im a creeper. Today I wore my amazing gray suede ankle boots and Im really becoming good at walking in heels! YAY!! Im was convinced that me and my super flat feet would never get use to heels, but lo and behold! I can walk in heels now! Also I just purchased this AMAZING JC de Castelbajac skirt AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I am VERYVERY excited to receive this. I also cant wait to style this with my other clothes! I also cant wait for a/w. I want to wear tights, coats and layers. Its going to be fabulous.

M.E.T

9.27.09

In the first two posts of this blog I have already confessed my love for food. Its sort of an obsession, and Im definitely a "craver".

Growing up, I was never introduced to "fine" food. Between the two of us, my mom is one of those 10% of moms who isn't a good cook. It seems like all my friends are always bragging about "Oh, I wont eat restaurant desserts! My mom/sister bakings puts this to shame!" My families cooking was never like that, although I like to eat it, I realize that its not amazing. At the time fancy to me was Sizzler's, and going to McDonald's almost put me to tears. My family in general was sort of uncultured. I didn't grown up listening to NPR, or Bob Dylan, my parents didn't know about paprika or any of that. I hate it when people think your stupid when the things of their life wasn't part of yours. Life is just different for each person, really sheesh! SO as soon as I got a job that paid over $10 an hour my life changed. I was finally able to indulge in a deep love of mind. I first splurged on fast food, I ate everything that I couldn't while growing up. I soon became bored with that and began exploring the amazing land of local favorites. I think that's when I gain the extra weight (which is minuscule compare to the weight other girls from highschool have gained. I'm serious.) Nowadays my taste hasn't really changed that much. I eat out less, due to another fantastic discovery. I CAN COOK! AND IM NATURALLY GOOD AT IT! I don't care much about rules that go along with cooking I more into experimenting. Most things I cook come out pretty good. I don't cook too often but I really like food and finding out how it comes to be. I still spend alot on going out to eat, and if I don't go out to eat during the weekend I feel like something is missing. I try to take my family out as often as I can. I like to make them try new things like Thai, Indian, Greek and good American. Whenever I take them out and pick up the tab, it makes me feel like Im helping their personal food journeys. My mom is always super adorable grateful when I take them out. This is making me want to do it more often! Some of my favorite SLC local restaurants are

Moochies

Emme's / Center St.

Settabello's

Bayou

Acme

Lambs Grill

Atlantic Cafe

Caputo's

Hatches

Himalayan Kitchen

I could go on for a long time.

Although I am mostly interested in local handmade food every now and then I feel the strange pangs of grease cravings. For instants lately I've been thinking alot about Costco deli food. I KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME? Ive decided to indulge myself. Im going to go there tomorrow after I go to the climbing gym. Ive convinced myself that its ok because I will work out right before eating and its a once a year thing. I believe that with both clothes and food its good to mix your everyday with pricey. Im anti just one or the other. I don't want to eat super expensive food all the time so I try to go to taco stands or salt lake owned deli's. Its also really fun to be able to walk or bike to the location. I think walking there always adds to the experience.

Later I will tell you about what food group philosophy I believe in.

M.E.T

9.24.09

Ahh... My second post a couple months later. Nice. Whats even more nice, is I now have internet in my apartment. Unfortunately it works best in the kitchen. Which actually doesn't bother me too much for these reasons. First of all Im sure its a super cute image. Girl interneting from the kitchen counter on a little turquoise chair, ohhh....! Secondly its like a beautiful marriage of my two obsessions, food and fashion. Since all I really do online is look at clothes (Its sort of a problem, sort of. ish.) Clothing and fashion makes me all anxious, because I want it ALL! RIGHT NOW! Its really difficult to budget when everything is on sale for just one day. God, Ive got to calm down with the luxury clothing sale sites.

I recently got my third job. This job is at a local art center, I am the education assistant. I really like this job because its a place were I can dress up. My other jobs require me to do some physical labor or use messy materials, around messy kids. This job is perfect for finally wearing all my over the top clothing. The only downside about dressing up is that I walk to work. Resulting in me being the type of women who always carries and extra pair of shoes. The walk to work takes me through the most conservative side of the whole city. It the headquarters for the LDS church. Women who work for the church have a strict dress code of knee length skirts and tights/nylons all the time. When I walk past these people I feel very out of place. Today I wore a black shirt, black sweater with sequined shoulders, white shorts striped with bold blocks of gray, black, royal blue and mustard, Dark gray tights and lastly amazing gray suede ankles boots. OH! And I usually wear my hair in a braid on top of my head, all Frida Kahlo like. Yea, I was looking good. This outfit doesn't sound too "out there" but it was for these people! As I walked I sang

"One of these things are not like the others, one of these things just doesn't belong."

Everyone tries really hard not to look at me. Like its even bad to look, but I see the corner of the eye glances.

When I started this blog I thought it would be dedicate to photos of my daily wardrobe. Then I realized something, one on one Im super friendly but online and in large groups Im not likable. The reason those other blogs work is because those ladies are really pretty, and although I am cute I just dont think it will convert to a successful "what I wore" blog. I will occasionally show you what I wore but I want this blog to be about what Im thinking, whats going on in my life, clothes, food, pets and toys.

M.E.T.

p.s. The Eastern Europeans next door are fighting again.